In search

Seeking to find the God within, Hard to let go and even difficult to let in. How foolish to search for happiness When it is no more nor less Then wherefrom does the pain arise When curves and turns hold no more surprise? The best and worst are not yet over Ready to go fast but moving much more slower I know its a long way away from home On this lone stretch alone In search... - Pasang D Lepcha

Everything happens for a reason...a purpose...a destiny! even the smallest of an event isn't fluke...the only challenge is understanding beyond appearances, looking behind facades...at the larger picture .. - Pasang D Lepcha

The glaring lights of the city, darkens the walls of my soul. While the cold midnight wind breathes life into my heart. How long before this road, reaches the end of its glory into light...

So close yet so far away, time feels flat, Many a hopes and many a dreams, Muffled voices I hear no more… And soon I will be gone! As free as a bird… - Pasang D Lepcha

I couldn’t stop myself from being amused as my friends started eating the New Year's Dinner in the wee hours after the nights celebration. I needed to get out of the smoke filled room to breathe some fresh air as I had already started wheezing because of the second hand smoke I had been smoking throughout the night. I quickly reached for the door and went out gulping as much of the cold and fresh air as possible. There was no sign of the sun due to the cold and thick fog. I vigorously climbed the stairs the terrace to warm up my body. I was feeling sick due to lack of sleep and hunger, but there was more to my sickness... What will you do if 101 people act in a prescribed way and 1 person does it differently? Who will you go with? Do you admonish something as false just because it does not come up to your expectations? Signals and symbols can be misinterpreted, indicators can lie. That's my dilemma right now. I realized this is I need to learn most. What is the truth? The t

Some people create illusions to hide the reality, to make believe and imagine the reality they want to see and feel. I am not one of them , I like to make illusions out of the reality that exists, to give them a sharper and sometimes various underlying meanings.

As I lay under the warm Dehradun sun with a pile of newspapers and magazines comfortably snuggled on the reclining chair I realised that the holidays that I had much awaited has passed under the blink of an eye with merely a few hours left before I catch the train back to Delhi. The news as always is bad and I am reading an article in the outlook 'how to stay happy in these depressing times?" The article just makes you feel that the blues are everywhere and everyone is in "pursuit of happiness" and well being. Khuswant Singh, Abul Kalam Azad and some other guy recommends the top three things for happiness. Which figured as follows-a) A good bank balance b) family ties c) I forgot…I only remember the other article it recommended a 14 MP G10 Canon Power Shot! Phew! Quite a list. I need to acquire all of them. I have been telling everybody that 2008 has been a bad year for everyone. A year of loss and suffering and yet it hasn't been so bad either. A mixed bag may

A door that I need to close A singed memory that I need to crush A fall that I need to take The final chapter that I need to finish A dream to forget before I wake A time will come when can I look back and smile, lifetimes, spaces, time and again Singed memories of a crumbled edifice A blurry vision behind a teary eye Many paths needs to be traversed, and many a lonely night under the starry gaze How many sighs under the wishful moon, before I find the missing piece of the larger maze - Pasang D Lepcha

"What's to lose? What is the worst that can happen? Am I content to live the rest of my life this way? Against a background of death, is this so risky? -(Dr. Brian Weiss-Only Love is Real) It's not about losing love but about solving the unresolved questions within oneself. Disillusionment resulting from fear and the unknown -the incessant questions arising about oneself and the world. Love is never lost its only the perspective that is lost. Life is about finding oneself within this wilderness of confusion. Why do we constantly scamper around in fear trying to find security when we know that the only thing that matters is living life in the here and now. Why do we keep on living and try to build our lives as if we will live forever? Its not about losing love its finding the voice within oneself to live the life we have dreamed of. "If you know the life you want to lead, then you must have the courage to live it", a wise one once said to me. How true, yet sad whe

My soul cries out to feel the fresh breath of air from the Mountains far away... How I long to hear the rustle of the leaves in complete silence. How far those days seem when on a cold rainy day,I used to sit by the window with a warm cup of tea in my hands, watching the clouds, listening to the rain. Ahhhh! the smell of the grass and earth after the rain . Heavenly! Warm smiles on flushed faces that used to relax each part of my body down to the bone... Comforting were those days to be with family and friends. Where have those days gone I wonder! I once read in a blog somewhere "I always wanted to live a different life" but how true these words ring for me too. Is this the life I wanted? With just hope to keep me company in my moments of loneliness and despair. I plod on ahead to the unknown.